Monday, December 19, 2011

The gremlin

I was talking to a friend last week about the inner gremlin we all have--that little voice that says you're not good enough, smart enough, thin enough, blahblahblahblah. It can be never-ending. She suggested taking a moment to acknowledge that voice for what it is--just a little gremlin-it's not the truth or God. My gremlin was working overtime a couple of weeks ago but after that conversation I've had an easier time at least recognizing it--it's still there but now I'm trying to just say "thanks for the advice but I've got this!"

For me the gremlin is working in tandem with my patience and anxiety. What if the goals that I have aren't possible, I'll never achieve them, I'll have to move far away, I'll have to sacrifice things that are dearly important to me--it's all impossible. My gremlin is particulary skilled at stressing me out. So I'm working on that--it's not easy.

What do you do to quiet your inner critic?

Monday, December 5, 2011

It's been a while!

In an effort to work on myself and achieve my goals I'm working with a woman that I know on some coaching. She's helping me identify obstacles that exist or that I've created and move through them quickly and efficiently so that I can be my best self. I'm excited to start the process and see where it leads. Here's the link if you're interested:

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I can make the best of my current situation. I'm working on some new self-directed projects at work that I think have potential to make some important impacts for my department and community. Sometimes I find that when I'm working on projects that I've dreamed up it's harder to commit to them--there's no deadline, no one waiting for me to turn something in and I tend to procrastinate. To counteract that tendency I'm going to come up with a work plan that identifies specific tasks, work products, timelines and deadlines so that I have a way to be accountable.

On a side note we spent the weekend at a backcountry cabin with a bunch of friends. We skiied, ate, played in the snow, played cards, ate some more and then ate a little bit more (there might have been some drinks involved also). It was so great to get away from the regular life responsibilities and distractions--no to do list, no tv, no phone! Loved it!